Now I’m just being evil…

January 4th

I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End.” Blessed are those who wash their robes, that they may have the right to the tree of life and may go through the gates into the city. The Spirit and the bride say, “Come!” And let the one who hears say, “Come!” Let the one who is thirsty come; and let the one who wishes take the free gift of the water of life.

Revelation 22:13-14, 17 (NIV)

It is true that the temporal order has its time; but the Eternal shall always have time. If this should not happen within a man’s life, then the Eternal comes again under another name, and once again shall always have time. This is repentance. Confession is a holy act, which calls for a collected mind. A collected mind is a mind that has collected itself from every distraction, from every relation, in order to center itself upon this relation to itself as an individual who is responsible to God. It is a mind that has collected itself from every distraction, and therefore also from all comparison. For comparison may either tempt a man to an earthly and fortuitous despondency because the one who compares must admit to himself that he is behind many others, or it may tempt him to pride because, humanly speaking, he seems to be ahead of many others.

Father in Heaven! What is a man without Thee! What is all that he knows, vast accumulation though it be, but a chipped fragment if he does not know Thee! What is all his striving, could it even encompass the world, but a half-finished work if he does not know Thee: Thee the One, who art one thing and who art all! So may Thou give to the intellect, wisdom to comprehend that one thing; to the heart, sincerity to receive this understanding; to the will, purity that wills only one thing. In prosperity may Thou grant perseverance to will one thing; amid distractions, collectedness to will one thing; in suffering, patience to will one thing. Oh, Thou that giveth both the beginning and the completion, may Thou early, at the dawn of day, give to the young man the resolution to will one thing. As the day wanes, may Thou give to the old man a renewed remembrance of his first resolution, that the first may be like the last, the last like the first, in possession of a life that has willed only one thing. Alas, but this has indeed not come to pass. Something has come in between. The separation of sin lies in between. Each day, and day after day something is being placed in between: delay, blockage, interruption, delusion, corruption. So in this time of repentance may Thou give the courage once again to will one thing. True, it is an interruption of our daily tasks; we do lay down our work as though it were a day of rest, when the penitent (and it is only in a time of repentance that the heavy-laden worker may be quiet in the confession of sin) is alone before Thee. This is indeed an interruption. But it is an interruption that searches back into its very beginnings that it might bind up anew that which sin has separated, that in its grief it might atone for lost time, that in its anxiety it might bring to completion that which lies beforeit. Oh, Thou that givest both the beginning and the completion, give Thou victory in the day of need so that what neither a man’s burning wish nor his determined resolution may attain to, may be granted unto him in the sorrowing of repentance: to will only one thing.

from Kierkegaard’s Purity of Heart is to Will One Thing (Ch. 15)


The good news is that since this is the last (daily) post, you will not be seeing any more Kierkegaard. The bad news is…. actually I don’t have any bad news. Sorry?

You’ve got to actually fight if you want to win

June 27th

What does it mean to be more than a conqueror? That you go into the conflict and you come out with more than you had when you went in. And I believe that is really what God desires when we go through times of testing and conflict, that we come out with more than we had when we went in. We don’t just win, but we come out with spoils.

Derek Prince

If God is for us, who is against us? He did not even spare His own Son, but offered Him up for us all; how will He not also with Him grant us everything?

Who can separate us from the love of Christ? Can affliction or anguish or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: “Because of You we are being put to death all day long; we are counted as sheep to be slaughtered.” No, in all these things we are more than victorious through Him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing will have the power to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord!

Romans 8:31-32,35-39 (HCSB)


I don’t remember where the Prince quote is from, sorry.

I  find that this section is always a good reminder that the whole ‘persecution’ thing is not always rhetorical. Truly following Christ always costs, even if there is a reward, but the cost is more obvious in some places and times.

…and here’s Mandisa’s Overcomer on Youtube and Spotify respectively. 

Hinds’ feet…

March 20th 

Yet I will wait patiently… though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior. The Sovereign LORD is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to tread on the heights. 

Habakkuk 3:16-19 (NIV)

We feel we would give anything if only we could, in actual experience, live on the High Places of love and victory here on this earth and during this life—able always to react to evil, tribulation, sorrow, pain, and every wrong thing in such a way that they would be overcome and transformed into something to the praise and glory of God forever. As Christians we know, in theory at least, that in the life of a child of God there are no second causes, that even the most unjust and cruel things, as well as all seemingly pointless and undeserved sufferings, have been permitted by God as a glorious opportunity for us to react to them in such a way that our Lord and Savior is able to produce in us, little by little, his own lovely character.

from Hannah Hurnard’s Hinds’ Feet on High Places (Preface)


The ‘hind’s feet’ meme is also mentioned in Psalm 18. Also apropos… How to staying trusting when you don’t understand.

I am so inexpressibly reluctant to post audio. And even more reluctant to share something from someone who is currently ministering, from a potentially divisive source, but somebody sent this to me, and it was so on-topic for me (though I was thinking about it mainly in terms of sharing in the sufferings of Christ, and philosophy; that is, the tension between being and becoming, and lots of other things no one else cares about) that I figured I would share it.

And, regarding any doctrinal or practical differences any of the parties involved might have. He had a quote that went something like: “A lot of the time we’ll recommend a book to someone and say something like ‘You have to read this, it’s really great. Be careful though: his doctrine on the Trinity is a bit iffy.’ and we never say “You’ve got to read this book. Careful though: he’s never raised the dead.’ ”

Which… ouch. I am so guilty there.

‘Wait, I say, on the Lord’

January 3rd

The Lord is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him. It is good that a man should both hope and quietly wait for the salvation of the Lord.

Lamentations 3:25-26 (KJV)

It is profitable for Christians to be often calling to mind the very beginnings of grace with their souls. It was Paul’s accustomed manner,  when tried for his life, to open before his judges the manner of his conversion: he would think of that day, and that hour, in which he first did meet with grace; for he found it supported him.

I can remember my fears and doubts, and sad months, with comfort; they are as the head of Goliath in my hand: there was nothing to David like Goliath’s sword; for the very sight and remembrance of that did preach forth God’s deliverance to him.  Oh! the remembrance of my great sins, of my great temptations, and of my great fear of perishing for ever!  They bring afresh into my mind, the remembrance of my great help, my great supports from heaven, and the great grace that God extended to such a wretch as I.

My dear children, call to mind the former days, and years of ancient times: remember also your songs in the night, and commune with your own hearts.  Yea, look diligently, and leave no corner therein unsearched for that treasure hid, even the treasure of your first and second experience of the grace of God towards you. Remember also the word, the word, I say, upon which the Lord hath caused you to hope: if you have sinned against light, if you are drowned in despair, if you think God fights against you, or if heaven is hid from your eyes; remember it was thus with your father; but out of them all the Lord delivered me.

from John Bunyan’s Grace Abounding to the Chief of Sinners


The title is a reference to Psalm 27. Grace Abounding to the Chief of Sinners is, I’m not going to lie, is a bit of a slog. But Bunyan’s knowledge of the bible is impressive, the cross references are nice, and, to be fair, very few writers from the 1600s have held up so well. Of course, his personal testimony is pretty much timeless too, and it’s nice to know that he wrote something other than The Pilgrim’s Progress.

…and No Doubt by Petra, on Youtube and Spotify respectively, because, really? try to find a song that goes with this.