Truth makes for eloquence

October 25th

When men speak of what they know and from the depths of their souls testify to what they have seen, they speak with what we call, eloquence, for true eloquence is speaking from the soul. Thus David spoke of what he knew—what he had verified all his life—and this rendered him truly eloquent. As “truth is stranger than fiction,” so the truth that David spoke is more sweet than even fancy could have imagined. And it has more beauty than even the dream of the enthusiast could have pictured. 

Charles Spurgeon in The Good Shepherd

But Moses replied to the Lord [after the burning bush… and being given a whole speech to give to the leaders of Israel… and the snake/staff thing… and the temporary leprosy thing] “Please, Lord, I have never been eloquent —either in the past or recently or since You have been speaking to Your servant— because I am slow and hesitant in speech.”

The Lord said to him, “Who made the human mouth? Who makes him mute or deaf, seeing or blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go! I will help you speak and I will teach you what to say.”

Exodus 4:10-12 (HCSB)


…and then Moses said “Please, Lord, send someone else,” (which was pretty stupid, but then he was rather new to all this). Upon which the Lord got really angry and essentially established the priesthood, which I feel is sort of a disproportionate response, given everything that came after, but he’s the boss.

The spirit of the law

October 1st 

Instead of Moses, or any of the prophets, You speak, Lord God, the inspirer and enlightener of all the prophets; for You alone without them can perfectly instruct me, but they without you can profit nothing.

from Thomas a Kempis’ Imitation of Christ (Book II, Ch. 2)

…the Jewish leaders began to persecute him… and Jesus gave them this answer:

If I testify about myself, my testimony is not true. There is another who testifies in my favor, and I know that his testimony about me is true. You have sent to John and he has testified to the truth. Not that I accept human testimony; but I mention it that you may be saved. John was a lamp that burned and gave light, and you chose for a time to enjoy his light.

“I have testimony weightier than that of John. For the works that the Father has given me to finish—the very works that I am doing—testify that the Father has sent me. And the Father who sent me has himself testified concerning me. You have never heard his voice nor seen his form, nor does his word dwell in you, for you do not believe the one he sent. You study  the Scriptures diligently because you think that in them you have eternal life. These are the very Scriptures that testify about me…”

John 5:31-39 (NIV)


 

Sifting

September 28th 

“”Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sift all of you as wheat. But I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers.”

Luke 22:31-32 (NIV)

…be prepared first to be dealt with by God…

Set a thief to catch a thief, that is the method of the world; but when God Almighty sends a worker He sends one whom He has literally turned inside out, in a spiritual sense, one whose disposition He has altered and allowed the man or woman to know what He has done. There is no false knowledge in that worker’s life. That worker goes straight for one purpose, the conviction of the sinner, not to show his discernment, but that he may bring the soul out of its duplicity, out of its hypocrisy, into the light of God.

One more thing—if you are going to work for the cure of souls, you cannot choose the kind of souls you are going to work with, and when God brings you face to face with a two-­faced life, an inwardly hypocritical life, then you will understand what the examination of God’s Spirit is in you.

from Oswald Chambers’ The Cure of Souls


…and here’s Michael Card’s The Things We Leave Behind on Youtube and Spotify

No one can come to me, unless…

September 4th 

Jesus…  asked his disciples, “Who do people say the Son of Man is?” And they said, “Some say John the Baptist; and others, Elijah; but still others, Jeremiah, or one of the prophets.” He said to them, “But who do you say that I am?” Simon Peter answered, “You are the Christ, the Son of the living God.” And Jesus said to him, “Blessed are you, Simon Barjona, because flesh and blood did not reveal this to you, but My Father who is in heaven.”

Matthew 16:13-16 (NASB)

The majority of people when they come across a nature like Zacchaeus will say he is simply selfish, sordid, and indifferent; he is not convicted of sin, it is no use to try and deal with him. That is the attitude we all maintain to the “Zacchaeus” type of man until we learn how to bring Jesus Christ close to him. Whenever Jesus Christ came across men in His day, they knew where they were, and they either rebelled or followed him. They either went away exceeding sorrowful, or they turned with their whole nature towards Him.

Look what happened to Zacchaeus—“And Zacchaeus stood, and said unto the Lord, Behold, Lord, the half of my goods I give to the poor; and if I have wrongfully exacted aught of any man, I restore fourfold” (RV). Who had been talking to him about his doings? Not a soul. Jesus had never said a word about his evil doings. What awakened him? What suddenly made him know where he was? The presence of Jesus!

So many people try to explain things about Jesus Christ, but no worker need ever try to do that. You cannot explain things about Jesus Christ, rely on the Holy Spirit and He will explain Jesus to the soul.

from Oswald Chamber’s The Cure of Souls (Ch. 2)  


There was also this quote at the end, which I liked (well, not liked, but you get the idea):

I want to say one other thing—the Spirit of God will not work for the cure of some souls without you, and God is going to hold to the account of some of us the souls that have gone un­cured, un­healed, un­touched by Jesus Christ because we have refused to keep our souls open towards Him, and when the sensual, selfish, wrong lives came around we were not ready to present the Lord Jesus Christ to them by the power of the Holy Spirit.

Which, just… ouch.

I’m not very emotional about this kind of thing, but then I always think of that horrible scene in Schindler’s List —where he suddenly realizes what all of the money he spent on his own expensive tastes and social posturing really meant in the economy of lives that he was dealing with, and that he could have saved so many more— and figure that he probably wasn’t very emotional about it either initially.

Mum’s Devotional… the place where metaphors come to die…

…gasping for breath, like a horse ridden too hard across the Gobi desert, even though there were perfectly adequate four-wheel drives available, possibly even camels, that knew where the watering holes were, but you didn’t listen to the local guide, who so clearly knew what he was talking about…

Three years ago today

So, I really, really don’t want to put an old Facebook post on a blog that is ostensibly for other, more experienced, people’s writing. I don’t want to repost it almost as much as I didn’t want to post it the first time; I knew that a number of unbelieving friends and relatives were going to see it, and you would have to know those friends and relatives to truly understand how horrifying this stunt was to me. It’s one thing to fumble for the right words in front of an understanding audience. It’s another to know exactly how someone is going to misunderstand (and read into) something, even if you say it perfectly —which, of course, you never do— and then still have to say it.

But I’m posting it now because I feel like it’s important to remember that it’s our personal experience, what we’ve learned for ourselves, that other people learn from best. It’s not what we ‘know,’ but our testimony and confession that gives life. If we had a minute-by-minute recording of Jesus’ entire ministry, I don’t think that it would be any better than the gospels we have, because the authors were telling people what they’d already been told, they were teaching as they’d been taught. They preached, but they were also leading by example, in the same way that Jesus led them by example.

My point is: people make mistakes. Some of us don’t write well. Others don’t talk well, and we always seem to say exactly the opposite of what we mean to. Sometimes we’re tired, and we’re vulnerable to anyone who wants to call us on a technical. Sometimes we’re not walking in the Spirit. Sometimes we’re just flat-out sinning.* God knows all of that… and yet he still uses us to speak to people.

It’s not always obvious how; sometimes we end up at the right time and place to save someone from drowning, and other times we’re not even sure if what we had to say mattered at all. But in either case we end up being faced with a choice, where we get to decide what we care about more, the beat-up nobody on the side of the road, or our reputation and where we thought we were headed.

So my testimony on the subject is: it doesn’t matter if it seems arbitrary and pointless.  It doesn’t matter if you don’t understand why. It doesn’t matter if you look stupid; it’s the foolishness of preaching that encourages, and helps, and saves:

It’s difficult enough to speak frankly in person — as soon as you open your mouth, people are already hearing a dozen superficially-similar speeches that have ‘all been made before,’ and are busy formulating a reply, so as a result nothing ever really gets said — and it’s several times worse on the internet.

So most of the time, on most subjects, I give it up as a lost cause and return to my book. A lot of sensible people do this. If someone doesn’t want to hear anything but their own echo, why bother? Why go through that generally exhausting, sometimes embarrassing, but always seemingly-futile process?

Unfortunately, it seems that I have zero scriptural support for this view (Pro 26:4 doesn’t count, unfortunately). Sure, I can avoid the really dumb discussions about whether vaccines give Democrats cases of global-warming (probably a good idea), and only occasionally try to help out people even more ignorant than I am, but:

“I am a debtor [under obligation], both to Greeks and to foreigners, both to wise and to thoughtless,” to preach the gospel “…for I am not ashamed of the good news of the Christ, for it is the power of God to salvation to every one who is believing…”

Avoiding this particular powder keg is just a fancy way of being ashamed of the gospel of Christ, which is, in turn, a kind of refusal to ‘share in the sufferings of Christ’ (somewhere in 2 Tim 1). (Also, I think the only other major way that that word “ashamed” is really used in the New Testament is when Jesus explains that he’ll be ashamed of “whoever is ashamed of me and my words.” That’s pretty stark.)

Whether I like it or not, God is just naturally ‘a stone of stumbling and a rock of offense.’ Though obviously, the truth is not a mallet to hit people over the head with. We’re still obligated is to ‘speak the truth in love.’ My point is that God doesn’t need a PR person. It’s not my job to “soften the blow.” (See: Jeremiah 23:29)

I know this sounds like some sort of absurd manifesto, but it’s really not. Sooner or later, merely human creeds outlive their usefulness, words that aren’t “the Word” can’t withstand the pressures we put on them. All I’m doing is the only thing that we can do when we see that we’ve fallen short somehow: admit we’ve screwed up (sometimes in an excruciatingly public manner), reject our own way, go back to where we went wrong, and find out what God has to say.

Also, I really hate the writing on this, which is what always happens when I try to be straightforward and, ugh, honest with people. It comes straight up like a little honesty-hairball. But I’m done complaining. I promise.


*Probably a good idea to stop that, if you’re aware of it.

Happy St. Patrick’s Day!

Better a poor and wise youth than an old and foolish king who will be admonished no more. For he comes out of prison to be king, although he was born poor in his kingdom.

Ecclesiastes 4:13-14 (NKJV)

It was among foreigners that it was seen how little I was. It was there that the Lord opened up my awareness of my lack of faith. Even though it came about late, I recognised my failings. So I turned with all my heart to the Lord my God, and he looked down on my lowliness and had mercy on my youthful ignorance. He guarded me before I knew him, and before I came to wisdom and could distinguish between good and evil. He protected me and consoled me as a father does for his son.

That is why I cannot be silent – nor would it be good to do so – about such great blessings and such a gift that the Lord so kindly bestowed in the land of my captivity. This is how we can repay such blessings, when our lives change and we come to know God, to praise and bear witness to his great wonders before every nation under heaven.

This is because there is no other God, nor will there ever be, nor was there ever, except God the Father. He is the one who was not begotten, the one without a beginning, the one from whom all beginnings come, the one who holds all things in being – this is our teaching. And his son, Jesus Christ, whom we testify has always been, since before the beginning of this age, with the father in a spiritual way. He was begotten in an indescribable way before every beginning. Everything we can see, and everything beyond our sight, was made through him. He became a human being; and, having overcome death, was welcomed to the heavens to the Father. The Father gave him all power over every being, both heavenly and earthly and beneath the earth. Let every tongue confess that Jesus Christ, in whom we believe and whom we await to come back to us in the near future, is Lord and God. He is judge of the living and of the dead; he rewards every person according to their deeds. He has generously poured on us the Holy Spirit, the gift and promise of immortality, who makes believers and those who listen to be children of God and co-heirs with Christ. This is the one we acknowledge and adore – one God in a trinity of the sacred name.

In the knowledge of this faith in the Trinity, and without letting the dangers prevent it, it is right to make known the gift of God and his eternal consolation. It is right to spread abroad the name of God faithfully and without fear, so that even after my death I may leave something of value to the many thousands of my brothers and sisters – the children whom I baptised in the Lord.

I didn’t deserve at all that the Lord would grant such great grace, after hardships and troubles, after captivity, and after so many years among that people. It was something which, when I was young, I never hoped for or even thought of…

from The Confession of St. Patrick


…and we all know how the rest of that story goes. Though we’re kind of mostly, entirely wrong.

Basically, there’s no reason to believe that there were any snakes in Ireland for St. Patrick to expel, and all the fantastical stories about him being a magical demigod/folk hero came around much later. (His PR guy, Muirchu, was recording those legends about two hundred years after he died.) The Confessio has none of that, and is actually quite astonishingly dull. Which is hard to do when you have a story with so many pirates in it. (Meh. It’s probably because of all the bible quotes he managed to sneak in there.)

Also, here’s a picture of my Orange Catholic Bible. Because I’m kind of a jerk; worse, the kind of scifi-reading jerk who thinks that’s actually funny.

orangecatholicbible

 

‘Wait, I say, on the Lord’

January 3rd

The Lord is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him. It is good that a man should both hope and quietly wait for the salvation of the Lord.

Lamentations 3:25-26 (KJV)

It is profitable for Christians to be often calling to mind the very beginnings of grace with their souls. It was Paul’s accustomed manner,  when tried for his life, to open before his judges the manner of his conversion: he would think of that day, and that hour, in which he first did meet with grace; for he found it supported him.

I can remember my fears and doubts, and sad months, with comfort; they are as the head of Goliath in my hand: there was nothing to David like Goliath’s sword; for the very sight and remembrance of that did preach forth God’s deliverance to him.  Oh! the remembrance of my great sins, of my great temptations, and of my great fear of perishing for ever!  They bring afresh into my mind, the remembrance of my great help, my great supports from heaven, and the great grace that God extended to such a wretch as I.

My dear children, call to mind the former days, and years of ancient times: remember also your songs in the night, and commune with your own hearts.  Yea, look diligently, and leave no corner therein unsearched for that treasure hid, even the treasure of your first and second experience of the grace of God towards you. Remember also the word, the word, I say, upon which the Lord hath caused you to hope: if you have sinned against light, if you are drowned in despair, if you think God fights against you, or if heaven is hid from your eyes; remember it was thus with your father; but out of them all the Lord delivered me.

from John Bunyan’s Grace Abounding to the Chief of Sinners


The title is a reference to Psalm 27. Grace Abounding to the Chief of Sinners is, I’m not going to lie, is a bit of a slog. But Bunyan’s knowledge of the bible is impressive, the cross references are nice, and, to be fair, very few writers from the 1600s have held up so well. Of course, his personal testimony is pretty much timeless too, and it’s nice to know that he wrote something other than The Pilgrim’s Progress.

…and No Doubt by Petra, on Youtube and Spotify respectively, because, really? try to find a song that goes with this.